New Journey

God has really been speaking to me about my relationship with him. I've been realizing that I really don't know my Bible. Growing up in a Christian home I guess I took the foundations for granted. Yet I find myself jealous when new Christians can't get enough of their Bible. I've never felt that passion for my Bible; I have felt passion to know my God deeply, but never really to know my Bible deeply. Yet the two go hand in hand.

With Lent having started this past Wednesday I've been seeing Lent fasts left and right. Even my parents who attend a Presbyterian church are participating in Lent and I've realized its not just a Catholic thing. Isn't fasting meant for all of us? And Lent is just fasting. I started thinking about what I could fast from for forty days and my main fasting topic usually has to do with technology; no TV, no computer, no facebook, etc. Computer isn't logical with school and whatnot. Plus I have my iPhone so I would definitely be a cheater with that one. TV is reasonable, but we have DVR so am I really giving up anything when I can just watch stuff later or online? You see? I always find the loop holes. Lately I have been trying to subtly prove to my sister that I am not addicted to Facebook. And I am not really. I can easily live without it, but I do enjoy Facebook quite a bit. I love people watching and in its own way Facebook is cyber people watching. I love knowing what's going on in my friends lives cause, let's be honest, who actually updates all their friends on what's going on. But even with trying to cut back on Facebook as of late I felt I needed to do more.

So I am fasting from Facebook. Not necessarily for lent. Its sort of an indefinite fast. Listening to God on this one. I typically in the past have skipped Facebook for the weekend or the week, but I have a feeling this one will be much longer. For all we know it could be much longer than 40 days. Maybe I'll end up deleting my account.....God I hope not.

So what does this have to do with my Bible? I am replacing Facebook time with Bible time. I claim to not have time for my Bible or when I do have time I am "too tired" for reading. If that's the case how do I have time to play games on my iPhone, to check Facebook in the morning, at night, and many random times throughout the day? So I have deleted my Facebook link located in my toolbar on my browser. I am very used to opening a browser and immediately hitting the Facebook button. I am actually surprised its not my homepage. Either way, the link is temporarily deleted. I temporarily deleted the Facebook app from my phone and have filled its prominent ease-of-access location with my Bible app. Who knows if I'll actually use my Bible app but at least its featured on the homepage to remind me the point behind all of
this.

Sidenote: Sarah accidentally logged into my Facebook tonight (it stays logged in on my computer) and I had 34 notifications and 2 emails. I didn't check any of them, but really people? Its been 2 days!! I didn't even announce I was fasting. How could I possibly have that many messages? I know I didn't write on any celeb statuses so how did this happen? haha

Another thing I've been meaning to work on is journaling. I have a hard time with journaling. Get ready for the list of excuses cause whether valid or not they are still excuses.

1. My wrist has a tendency to hurt with too much pencil/pen action. I think it has to do with a past hairline fracture. School is annoying enough without adding journaling to the list.

2. I find journaling cheesy sometimes even though I know its valuable. Who do I speak to in it; my self; the journal (Dear Diary....); God? God is clearly the smart option in this scenario, but I still find it coming out cheesy. No clue why. That's probably something I should work on also. I need to learn to make my thoughts to myself actual conversations with God. I've done that in the past and, believe me, it will deepen a relationship with God incredibly. Think about how much you talk to yourself. What if you spent all that time speaking with God instead? Seriously an amazing change will take place.

3. I like people knowing what's going on in my life too. My journal is extremely personal and I am extremely paranoid about people reading certain things in there. (Please don't steal my journal :S) There are aspects of my life that I do want to share and that's hard if I close it all up in a journal I don't want anyone to touch. Yet another problem with Facebook BTdub, (Btw- just kidding guys) I hate people who post ten million statuses, but I find myself constantly wanting to be one of those people so I can share bits and pieces of me.


All of this to say I am going to be using Blogger a lot more. Facebook will be replaced with my B-I-B-L-E, Blogger, and hopefully some journaling in there somewhere. Maybe Blogger will get me in the mood for journaling. Even now I am having a hard time wrapping this up.

Blogger is sort of magical in its own way. Anyone could be reading this. That's a very scary fact yet sort of magical. I am putting a piece of me out in this big wide world and who knows where it will end up. I am kind of blown away by that and I am in love with the idea of the magic of this.

Ok so in sum- Facebook fast lasting an indefinite amount of time, praying for a renewal of my relationship with my God, some new healthy habits in the way of journaling and reading my Bible, and some Blogger action.



Thank you for your magic world. I am excited for this journey God has before me.