Days like these

I'm having one of those indescribable days. Where its like I should be happy and I generally am but I still feel kind of sad for no reason. Where I'm lonely and wanting to hang with all my close friends, yet I want to be entirely alone. Where I just want to drive and drive while I listen to Indie music and dance by myself. I want to be happy and know I should be so joyful for days and times like these yet I still find myself dancing with a lingering sense of sadness. Its a true mix of emotions and desires.

Life Lessons

When you are happy and nothing can get you down watch the happy, romantic classic movie.

When you feel a bout of loneliness coming on go for the cheesy, "the world is ending" action movie.

Goals I Will One Day Achieve

1. Learn to properly play piano.
2. Learn to play trumpet
3. Learn to play violin
4. Explore/hike often
5. Visit the International House of Prayer in Kansas City

6. Buy a Potter's wheel

SOCAL

Today I visited two college campuses; CSULB, and CSULA. CSULA was nice, LA was not. Its more of a backup than anything else, but its a backup that I'd be ok with. CSULB on the other hand. AMAZING campus! Its beautiful. Unfortunately I wasn't really able to get a feel for whether or not there is too many students cause people are probably moving in tomorrow. But its super spread out so I have no concerns about that anymore.

The even better part is that Stephen encouraged me to actually talk to someone in the Social Work department. The lady I talked to is actually in charge of admissions into the department. At first she's telling me how a 2.5 GPA is the first requirement but they are probably changing it to 3.1 next year. The second I told her I have about a 3.7 she warmed up to me and started telling me about the competitive stipends and how if I get my BA with a certain GPA then basically I can do another program which would cost me a summer versus a full year towards my Master's. She gave me a flier on the various fields I could go into with Social Work and a pamphlet on their program. I know the exact classes I need for prerequisites and I've already fulfilled or am currently fulfilling 3 out of 5 of those.

So basically I think I'm going to Long Beach. I really like the campus. I like the Social work department and I think I kind of got my foot in the door today by talking to this lady. She also gave me her email and fax number in case I have other questions. Super happy.

Now the plan is to check out CSU San Bernardino tomorrow as another backup, but I think I'm shooting for CSULB. :)

The Right School?

I may know where I am heading for school in about a year. I'm very seriously considering CSU Long Beach. I like the area. I like the price. I like their social work program. Their MSW (Masters of Social Work) program has a pretty decent rating. Out of the top 80 schools in their whole nation they are rated 59. Not bad. That's basically their input and their output looked at together, how many people graduate and get a high paying successful job.

My only concern with the school is the size. I was absolutely positive I wanted to go to San Diego State University but the second I stepped onto that campus I felt like I was going to be trampled. I always thought I could handle a big school, but apparently 30,000 students is just too many for me. Which is where my problem with CSULB comes in. Its also 30,000 students.

I'm trying not to get hopeful about this. I just feel like I've been researching school after school after school and its all just kind of bleh. When I researched SDSU I immediately loved it. Until CSULB I hadn't found another school like that. I'll be visiting it soon and then I'll know whether I can handle such a big size. Although there comes in another issue. The only real time I can visit it is the Friday before school starts. I'm hoping with school starting the following week that it'll be up to its typical buzz so I can really get a feel for it.

If this doesn't end up working out I have no idea where I'll go. I'll probably end up in Fresno, which is NOT something I want to do. I'm just trying to be realistic. I want to be semi-close to home and I need something cheap. Fresno is both of those things. I figure if I do head there and get my bachelor's I can leave quickly and find an amazing school for my Master's. I just feel like my life keeps getting put on hold. I know that's not true. But I want to be out there getting my degree and using it. I'm jealous of all the kids heading off to college right now. I want to be there. I want to be shopping for my dorm room supplies. I love this area, but I don't want to be here anymore. I want my life to be moving forward. I feel like I'm just sitting on my butt.

Please pray that CSULB works out and if not that I immediately do find the right school for me. Time is running out to find it. If I want to be at a new school next fall then I need to be applying soon. Most schools want applications by November. That may seem like plenty of time, but its not. I'm going to be busy with Cuesta again soon and I don't know how motivated I will be to research. Just pray pray pray for me! Thank you!

Rules to be inspired by

I'm kind of a copycat, but I feel inspired so I'm going with it. I've been checking out the website rulesformyunbornson.tumbler.com I think I may start my own life rules blog based off of my experiences. Let's count this as a trial period to see if it takes off. If you have title suggestions let me know. For now I will try and think of one that's original so I don't just have one super similar to the website which inspired me.

So rule #1?

#1: Let inspiration versus fear take the lead.

My besties

I really really love my friends. Every time I hang out with them it feels epic. They are a huge reason I am so happy right now. I know I have the best support system possible and they are always there for me. Thanks for being so great guys! I really do love you

Name mispronunciation

my name is Julieanne. Anyone see an "a" at the end of my name? In the middle yes. Please pronounce the middle "a." Do not turn the silent "e" into an "a" when you say my name. It is NOT Julieanna. You should know that if you see how my name is spelt, if I say my name to you, or if I was best friends with your kid for many many years.

If you call me Julieanna then I will add a random "a" to the end of your name. You are warned.

Lesson Learned

Wax paper on tile floor is slippery. Almost doing the splits in front of a customer and then having to pretend my injured knee didn't get tweaked in the stunt is not fun.

The point of all this: If you drop trash at work it doesn't matter if its behind the counter, you are alone, and you'll pick it up later. You should pick it up immediately.

Lesson Learned? Check!

Long night at work

It was an awfully long night. I ALMOST beat my record of most customers all on my own. I think I was only one or two people away. Maybe if I had helped the guy who walked in right as I was closing or the people who knocked on the door begging to get in 10 minutes after I closed. Seriously guys, did you need chocolate bad enough that you had to injure your pride by begging outside a locked chocolate store? And this isn't the first time. Its just a different group of people.

Customers make things very uncomfortable sometimes. Its part of the effect of working next to multiple bars. However not every crazy customer is drunk. In fact, most are not. For example:

Me: Hi would you two like some samples? We have vanilla peanut butter fudge and old fashioned fudge.

Female customer: Sure!

Male customer: I'll take old fashioned. I'm more of an old fashioned guy.

Female: really? Then why'd we sleep together on the first date?

Me: *stare at sample plate intensely while rewrapping it in saran wrap and while I pretended to be selectively deaf*

Female to me: that didn't really happen

Male: *thinks to the past with confused face* it didn't did it? Hmm

me: *what!!!?*

really? who says that in front of a complete stranger? or how about the customers a couple weeks ago who were drunk and decided to air hump each other while I grabbed their candy. gross! have some decency and modesty people!

New topic: This town needs a parking garage. I don't like parking 4 blocks away whenever there is some random event which is like every other weekend during the summer. Thank goodness I have pepper spray, my key knuckle strategy, and my call a friend defense. haha! Oh come on its just Paso I know but you can never be too safe. And I stopped with the key knuckles after I got pepper spray (I hold my keys between my knuckles so if I have to throw a punch its going to hurt a bit more than my weak lack of strength).

I'm bored so another new topic: Anybody remember YEARS ago when there was that summer filled with crickets galore? I specifically remember walking around the fair with them jumping everywhere and a guy picking one up and eating it. I also remember walking into the Burger King bathroom and there being at least 4 in there. I consider that to be "The Summer of the Crickets." Well I officially consider this *drumroll* "The Summer of the Pincher Bugs." It started with a bake fest at Noelle's where they hid in the rose petals which is natural. Not dying is not natural. Then they were in my bathroom later that day. Then in the sink a few days later. Then the shower a few days in a row. Randomly crawling out from under a plate tonight. Its getting scary. Is this a plague?

Alright I'm done now. Goodnight all... or just Noelle since she's probably the only one who will be reading this. Farewell all... I need to come up with an epic sign off phrase. Give me some time

Beginnings

I decided I am wanting to change my status on Facebook too much to fill people in on my daily life happenings. So I started up a blog once again. I haven't had one since middle school. So this is kind of weird. I would actually write something of worth right now if I wasn't too tired and on the phone and chatting with people. I'll give a real update later. I just thought I should start with something.